Tuesday, July 19, 2005


So I've decided to update once again-- I'm not really sure why because I don't have much to say -- I just feel the need to update. Life is flowing -- maybe for the first time in months -- it's flowing smoothly and I find myself smiling much more often. I find myself forgetting my past church much more often and I find myself caring less -- I thought I'd hate when that moment care because I believed that the hurt I felt at least reminded me of the love I had -- now I feel nothing and it's quite nice -- to not hurt or really love them anymore -- it's not that I hate them by any means -- it's just that I'm freed I guess -- their opinion of me no longer bothers me -- their control no longer controls me. It's a great thing.

My life grows more interesting by the month -- it seems like I've had another summer of picking up the most ignorant men alive -- there was the guy who wanted to knock me up -- then the cable guy who called at 3 a.m. and then scattered wackos that hit on me in scattered bars, grills, restaurants, bookstores -- you know public -- it seems like normal guys are so few and far -- which is why my previous entry was placed here -- there is at least one normal guy.

But don't get me wrong I'm not a psychotic girl who meets a guy and gets married in 2 months -- I attended LCC -- but I never said I liked it. I don't idolize dumb decisions. Just thought I should make that clear.


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