Monday, September 04, 2006

It's an Update

Wow- it's been awhile. A lot has changed. I finished grad school, working full time, getting ready to start my PhD. I have a boyfriend, who I'm finding myself growing more and more attached to. That statement in itself is frightening.

So what about God and I. Well I gave up trying. Two years ago I went through a pretty horrific experience, one year ago I saw love in action, today...I gave up my efforts, I gave in to desires, and I became real...not this fake person who was making decisions despite my ability to believe them.

Regardless...I feel human...and for the first time...I'm okay with being a human and not striving for saint hood...afterall...I am who I am...and I am who God made me to be. My mistakes, choices, actions...though rarely pure and holy and rarely accepted by the Christian folk, as I choose to call them....are none the less a part of my humanity and seperate from God's ability to love me.